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April 26, 2006

will wonders never cease.

What a lovely morning! Sure it is a little chilly, but the sun is shining and at my weigh in this morning I saw that I have lost a total of 25 pounds! Amazing, I am practically my gay.com weight. Bring on the summer bitches, cause I am wearing tight tee shirts!

Almost had a relaxing evening last night. Did a bit of yoga before heading home and deciding to not go to the gym. Went to a great meeting and the realized that I was just about to miss a scheduled conference call. That could have been ugly, but all went well. After a call that took almost two hours I headed to bed. Even when the temps are a little low I love to sleep with the window open in spring and autumn. Something about the fresh air is energizing.

I feel like I have more energy today and lighter. I feel lighter on many, many levels.

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April 25, 2006

my nights are warmer than firecoals

I had to have the seat warmers on this morning, I have been getting used to the warm weather and really do not want to see it go away. I am quite sure that it will be significantly warmer in Dallas, so I will at least be warm Thursday and Friday.

PrisonBreak was a little dull last night, maybe I was just not in the mood for Wentworth. Could it be that the flame is dimming on our love? Well, I am sure that all good things must come to an end. I think I may be learning that in a number of areas of my life.

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April 24, 2006

planning the day around the parking

I hear it was a glorious weekend, sun shining, birds singing, boys walking around the lakes with their shirts off. I am so lucky that I had to work. I makes me appreciate the good times. I actually ended the weekend with a great walk around Lake Harriet as the sun was setting. There is a beautiful view of downtown form that lake. I sat with a friend and watched planes taking off and looked at the stars as they got brighter in the sky. It is wonderful to have places in the city to step away from the commotion of life and relax. I have a very blessed life.

Crazy busy week ahead. I have more then a full weeks work to put into three days, I am off to Dallas at the end of the week for a marketing trip. I am actually a little bummed that I will be missing two days of firm fit, I am so pleased with the results so far, although to address some of the questions as to when a shirtless pic of me will be on the blog, I think I am some ways away from being "blogworthy, but if the time comes...

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April 21, 2006

every nights a party where the fun never ends

It never ceases to amaze me how I can accomplish things that I would have never thought were possiblewhen I simply make the decision to do them. A month of firmfit, being at the gym at 6 am 6 days a week and I have not missed a day! I am really proud of myself. I grew up with all that ridiculous self talk that so many gay men seem to have..the I can never do anything athletic, I am just a sissy talk. Well bitches that ain't the truth. So screw you every elementary school gym coach!

I am actually a little bummed that I will miss 2 mornings. I will be in Dallas next Thursday and Friday, doing a little marketing for work and will not be able to make the gym. Don't worry (and I know you are all worrying) I have already scheduled extra workouts to keep up with the group. We can't have Fabian making greater strides then me.

Maybe a movie tonight. Still have not seen Sleven.

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April 20, 2006

all alone in the moonlight

Wow, apparently there are a couple of people who get upset if I don't post. Here you go Melissa, hope you are happy now!

I was at a seminar this morning on sobriety support for adolescents looking to return to acedemic settings following inpatient treatment. I laughed, I cried, it was better then Cats. In all seriousness, it was incredibly interesting. So many laws, which are in place to protect patients rights get in the way when people are trying to help, especially when it comes to adolescents.

Spinning and yoga this am at firmfit. I tried on a bunch of clothes last night( I had to dress up for the seminar) and all my clothes are fitting differently. That is sweet.

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April 19, 2006

he lives in you

Send out some happy birthday wishes to the one gay at a time guy Allen today. While I have met a couple of the guys posted and have e-mailed back and forth with a couple more, Allen is the first guy in a gratuitous shirtless shot to appear on this blog who I actually know. Happy Birthday Allen!

After my monday night without sleep I was just exhausted yesterday. So much that a highly inappropriate and rather exciting call from yoga boy was rainchecked. My bed was calling and for sleep. It was still difficult to drag myself out of bed this morning, but now that I am firmfitted, showered and at the office, coffee in hand I feel refreshed. Get back to me about that around 3!

I want to throw another plug out for Tori Spelling and her VH1 show So NoTORIous. I was talking with a couple of homos at the gym this morning and it is agreed, this is the best new show out there. Apparently this sunday there will be a marathon, if you can call running the 3 finished shows a marathon. If you have not yet seen this show...check it out.

We had a thunderstorm last night, Frank and Henry do not like thunderstorms, so I found myself with 2 terrified cat both trying to get closer to me during the storm. It made me feel like a twisted Maria von Trapp.

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April 18, 2006

I am in the dark beside you

I was up until around 2 am with a family for work on the phone and still managed to get up at 5 to go to the gym for the FirmFit. Spinning and yoga today. I can really feel some differences along with seeing some results. I will be headed home for a nap after work today, I will have to skip "yoga" if you know what Io mean, too tired for anything extracurricular.

Prison Break was a little disappointing last night, except for the scenes were Wentworth took his shirt off for me, that was sweet of him having the writers put those scenes in. He really is a dear.

The plan at this point is to play a little tennis at lunch, hopefully the coffee and diet Rockstars will keep my energy up.

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April 17, 2006

everyday when we do what we do everyday

Firmfit kicked my shrinking ass this morning.This was the hardest day to get out of bed, that's for sure and I was in bed last night at 9. I can see and feel improvement, of course they are not coming as quickly as I would like but that is a theme in my life.

Just a glorious weekend here. I managed to spend a good deal of it outdoors, enjoying the weather and the welcome state of undress that accompanies it. I went through a couple of closets, tossing out clothes that I have not worn over the past winter before I put them in storage for summer.

I have fallen in love with the Tori Spelling show on VH1, it really is funny and dear God Loni Anderson is frightening. I was never a 90210 fan, but started loving Tori after seeing how funny she was in House of Yes and Trick. She really is a funny woman, Check it out.

Being a Western New Yorker at heart today for me will always be a mix of Dyngus Day. Buffalo has large Polish population( also large a Irish population where my roots are). Dyngus Day is a Polish holiday whose roots I do not know. What I do know is that it was an excuse to get really drunk the day after Easter. On Dyngus Day the girls take pussy willow branches and swat at the boys that they like, while the boyssquirt perfume on the girls. Oh, what fun!

So squirt, swat and have a great day.

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April 14, 2006

you both got your style

Apparently Steve has been reading my blog again, keeping tabs on the firmfit, although he has not bothered to leave a comment which is frankly a little hurtful. So here is the update, lower body today......ouch. I am going to take a full spin class after firmfit tomorrow, at least that is the plan as of today we will see what happens tomorrow. I have already seen a huge difference, the hole in the belt has changed, clothes are fitting differently(better), my energy is up(not that I really care, this is all for cosmectic purposes), all my recent yoga work has made me much more flexiable- and far more serene, if you know what I am saying.

I finally got to see the Sound of Music episode of Will and Grace last night. After many episodes which have been aggresively mediocre I was thrilled to be laughing at the show again. I had heard about this episode, but missed it the first time around. Will's reaction to drinking whole milk was classic.

We are planning my 40th birthday party this weekend, so if you want an evite forward you e-mail, or your snail mail address if you want a hard copy.

I hope everyone has a safe weekend. If you are travelling, take care.
Happy Easter.

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April 13, 2006

Did you ever laugh when a waitress trips and drops a tray of glasses?

What a great evening! A friend made dinner, those wonderful new asperagus sprouts-thin and sweet, fava beans, crostini of white anchovies and fresh sun-dried tomatoes. We walked around Lake Calhoun, where the eye candy was out in droves, and sat on the banks eating our tasty meal. The weather and company were perfect.

After I took him home I had a bunch of laundry to do. It startled me how much laundry these daily trips to the gym make, kept me busy for a few hours. Once again, windows open I slept like a baby.

Firmfit was great again this morning, it is good to see progress.

Another beautiful morning, the trees are all racing to see whose leaves open first. I am going to use my lunch today for another walk. My office has no windows, there is actually no natural light in our entire office. This, my friends, can make for a long day.

I will be in Dallas in two weeks, what should I do in my down time?

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April 12, 2006

could it be a faded rose from days gone by

Change is good. Spring is definately arrived in Minnesota, the trees a busting out, flowers are up, the air smells fresh, things are good. I am digging going to the gym each morning, although after working upper body today please don't ask me to reach for anything over my head.

Yesterday at lunch, Mike F and I went for a walk through the neighborhood around our office. We stopped at the Basilica, which even stripped bare for lent is a spectacular thing to see. Cathedral Hill is really a beautiful neighborhood, one that has seen beeter days, but beautiful still. I get a little sad when grand old homes are split up into condos or apartments are become office buildings. I guess it is better to reuse then tear down. One of things that I love about St Paul is the wealth of old beautiful homes and neighborhoods, it reminds me of Buffalo and makes me feel at home.

I was excited to hear yesterday that I have an upcoming marketing trip to Dallas, I get to see my dear friend Brian, which is always a cause for celebration. I was also excited, in a different way, to get a phone call from a certain dorm dwelling 21 year old yoga instructor yesterday. Unfortunately, or possibly fortunately, I had an evening planned with a sponsee so I had to pass, but I was flattered, it is always nice to be lusted after, right.

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April 11, 2006

Alice the camel has two humps

Great night last night, of course it was Prison Break and so good to spend time with Wentworth Miller. Dan came over for some tuna steaks. The weather here is gloriousm windows open and the breeae running through my house. I love to sleep with the windows open and had a deep, restful sleep last night.

Firmfit today was spin and yoga, after doing lower body today I was not really looking forward to jumping up on a bike, but once there had a blast. Speaking of yoga, I had a very delightful, shall we say run in, with a 21 year old yoga instructor this past weekend. Damn, was there some amazing flexibility! It has been a long time since I have seen the inside of a college dorm room, I remember more grateful dead posters but my memory is a little hazy.

And why is todays guy not smiling? If I owned that beautiful camel pillow I would be grinning from ear to ear all day long!

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April 10, 2006

he never done that before

It was a little more difficult to get out of bed this morning and be to the gym by 6. But I did it and I am glad I did.

Beautiful day here in the Sin Cities, aka the Twin Cities Minneapolis/St Paul, we are expecting temps of 74 degrees. It has been too long since we have seen those numbers here. Over the weekend I started to make the summer changes at my house. Took out patio furniture, actually had a fire in the backyard last night with a friend, it was very nice. Having the heat off and the windows open is always a good thing, makes the entire house smell like spring. There are flowers already,crocuses and such, and the day lilies and hostas have begun their takeover of all the beds. I love spring.

I was told by some friends this past weekend that I was going to have to take the lead in planning my upcoming 40th birthday party, as I have such high expectations that anything they plan will be a let down. I understand that this was meant kindly, that they want to see me enjoy the day, but with the mind set I have had lately it just makes me feel as if I am not worth the bother. There is a wedding for a good friend of some of my friends, so about 10 people who I would really want to be there will not be there, I am thinking more and more aboput just taking a weekend trip on my own and doing selfish things. This would feed very nicely into the loneliness I have been living in the last couple of month.

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April 07, 2006

pascal mystery

I think the mystery is how Golem from Lord of the Rings became the head of the Catholic Church

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plush velvet sometimes

Great morning at the gym, I am surprised at how much I am enjoying getting up at 5 and going to work out. It really does give me energy, at least through the first half of the day, sugar free red bull takes care of the rest.

There was a great thunderstorm here last night, parts of 494 were closed due to flooding. Things got so dramatic that Sven the weather guy on Kare 11 had to remove his coat to show how hard he was working! I had windows open in the kitchen and the thunderclaps scared the crap out of Henry and Frank, they would be all calm and each crack would send them first into the air, then dashing under the dining room table. I found their fear quite asuming. Actually it made me feel better about myself.

I have a couple of parties to go to this weekend. Being sober and having a primary circle of sober friends I find that I don't really go to alot of cocktail parties or really even parties with a cocktail party theme, but this weekend I am. I am looking forward to something different. I feel like it is going to be a great weekend.

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April 06, 2006

people come into your life for a reason

I have been thinking this morning about friends, people currently in my life and more specifically people who have been important in my life but for many reasons are not an active part in my life today.So, excluding the people I love and are currently active in my life, Brian, Fabian, Dan, Karen, Dubin, Billy, Julie, Bryan, Mike, Wayne,Laura, Matt, Scott, oh, the list goes on and on. But I would like to remember some friends from the past who have had a lasting effect on my life:

Libby Bunn- Libby was one of my best friends my senior year in high school, We went to see the Culture Club in 83, seats in the front row.I went with her to Jenss department store to buy her prom dress and the took her friend Julianne to the prom when her boyfriend broke up with her the night before. Libby made the decision to separate from me because of behavior of mine that had to do with the early stages of my alcoholism. She was wonderful then and I assume she is today.

Peter Atlas- Peter was a good friend during my time in Boston. He knew that I had a problem with chemicals long before I did. I have tried a couple of times to reconnect with him, but with no luck.

Wendy Attea- an amazing, creative, loving woman. Unfortunately I knew Wendy during a time when my using took off and I took advantage of her offered friendship. This was one really special lady and I didn't recognize how amazing she was. One day I will get over my ego enough to call her and acknowledge all of that.

Tim Heald- Tim may not belong on this list, because we are in contact today, but I am putting him on it anyhow. Tim was, like others on this list, supportive and caring during a period of my life when I was not able to accept that kind of treatment. I was not a good friend to him and I was not. I am delighted to have contact with him again.

There are many others, Cam Malcolm, Janette, Skip, Electa, Mike, Ellie, Randy, Jeff, but I have to work so that is the list for now.

Oh yea, did anyone else watch Flavor of Love and is embarassed to admit it? I loved when that Pumpkin spat on New York, that was awesome.

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April 05, 2006

the trouble with the world today is coffee in a cardboard cup

OK, so I have to start going to bed earlier if I am going to be at the gym working out at 6 am. there are not enough hours in the day for my life.

I slept through my alarm this morning, still woke up but didn't have the extra half hour I like. Because of my rush I left my phone at home, which is an unfortunate occurance as I am sure many of you can relate to. I feel so disconnected without it. Fabian was talking about how we ever got along without cell phones, of course I am far too young to remmeber that time, but that Fabian is far, far older than I.

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April 04, 2006

pippin, sit down immediately!

Yoga is hard! This morning was spinning and yoga. I am beat, but having a great time. Getting up at 5 am does cut into the evenings festivities, especially when there is no time for a nap.

I had a friend over last night for dinner and allowed them to watch Prison Break with me, those of you who follow this blog understand what a gift it was to share my private time with Wentworth Miller, or as I prefer calling him, my boyfriend. We had tuna steaks, steamed broccoli and edaname, it was very tasty if I can blow my own horn for a moment. I do love cooking, and have been told that I am good at it(although there was a pancake debacle this past weekend I would prefer to put behind me). It is nice to cook for someone else, I should like to do that more often.

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April 03, 2006

I love big muscles and red corpusles

Very full weekend, I finally took the ceiling down in my living room, just a little more demo to do and I can start hanging drywall. Sunday was my cheat day from the firmfit, I had salmon benedict for breakfast and was sick to my stomach for the rest of the day. Hollandaise and potaotes just did not agree with me. Plus the portions were a little tough to take.

I have recently been spending to much time analyzing and trying to put controls on a relationship I have and it has not been working at all. I need to relax and stop trying so hard, it was so much better before we tried to define it.

Hope you all have a good day, mine is jam packed.

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