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August 01, 2005
I'll be wearing ribbons down my back this summer
My friends Becky and Josh were married on Friday. Josh is a Marine, who is scheduled to return to Iraq next month. I have had the pleasure and honor of knowing Becky for about five years, watching her change into a really incredible woman. The wedding was perfect, I wish them all the best.
The rest of my weekend was good. I guess I was feeling a little sorry for myself, a little lonely. I am so grateful for all that is in my life today, it really is so full. But( there is always a but isn't there?), there are times when I get caught in self pity and it screws with my serenity. I have been praying alot this weekend, tryingf to be alright with life on lifes terms, blah blah blah...I want a boyfriend, there I said it. OH well, I am sure that saying it is bad karma, like breaking a mirror or something, great 7 more years, ugh.
Well, on a better note, I took a spin class at 6:15 am today, that's right AM !!!
It is good to know that I am still a little crazy.
But my legs and ass feel great, as if anyone wants to find out.
Ah, self-pity, dear old friend, your embrace is so comfortable.
Wish me well, it is going to be a long day.
Posted by JimG at August 1, 2005 08:28 AM
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Hmph - you never called me and told me you were feeling this way!
At a meeting last night the meditation reading touched on self-pity. It said that the more self-absorbed you are, the more self-pity you feel, and the more out of touch with reality you become. So get out of your head - be of service, and shut up about wanting a boyfriend already.
Posted by: SparklesMpls at August 1, 2005 10:12 AM
... what Dan said
Posted by: Dave / higher powered at August 1, 2005 10:09 PM
Keep meeting people and going on dates - law of large numbers says you'll eventually meet someone you like who likes you!
And enjoy your life. No one (sane) wants to date someone gloomy!
Posted by: Karen at August 3, 2005 10:38 PM
I understand your frustration. We have good days and bad ones, and as it says in the good book,
God didnt think it was good for man to be alone. Now that I understand that its ok with God that I am gay, I have to trust him that he will bring someone into my life or not. I hope he does, but if not, Either way, I will always have him, and He makes all the difference.
Aloha
Posted by: Jorge at September 10, 2006 05:52 AM