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May 26, 2005
An evening of rest
I have been a little overwhelmed with life as of late. Interpersonal conflict, work changes, family shit etc. has all raised my anxiety level. Last night I was supposed to be part of a good friends birthday dinner and I just did not have it in me to be at a social gathering, no matter how much I care for this guy. So I bowed out and spent the evening taking care of myself.
I still struggle with guilt when I put myself first, even when it is my mental and/or spiritual well-being which I am putting first. I know that I have to take care of myself in order to be of service to others( I know this because it is what I tell others and I am a very wise man). The paradox of course is that one of the greatest things I do to care for myself is to be of service to others. Maybe trying to figure that out is what is causing me all this anxiety, hmmm.
Anyhow, it is a beautiful morning, the sun is finally shining in Minnesota, if only for a short while. I am going to Boston, my favorite city in the US tomorrow. I have good friends. I am sober today. My life frigging rocks!
Right?
Posted by JimG at May 26, 2005 08:02 AM
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Be ready for winter without the snow. All it has done for the last month is rain. The temperature feels like 38 right now.
Posted by: Anonymous at May 26, 2005 09:08 AM
I was wanting an evening like that last night. But I did not get it. I will take care of myself tonight in while in Dallas. I am looking forward to getting your tape. lol Does your wisdom come thru in your story? lol ;)
Posted by: Cisco at May 26, 2005 09:35 AM
Yes, life does rock! Congrats on having a great attitude.
Posted by: Karen at May 26, 2005 03:42 PM
I believe that time alone is absolutely necessary. That's what I keep telling myself since I spend so much time - alone.
Posted by: Dave / higher powered at May 26, 2005 08:29 PM
I believe in being selfish from time to time. Of course, as long as it is for your own sanity!
Posted by: Jake at May 30, 2005 03:43 AM
you can't help anybody unless you help yourself. its important to know your own boundaries, good for you for staying home.
have an awesome time in bean town....
Posted by: christopher at May 30, 2005 10:42 PM