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February 05, 2005
Today is a day for
I stated drinking and using drugs when I was 12 years old.
During the play Pippin, I was offered a heineken and a joint to share by the propmistress Barb. I finally felt accepted and connected to other people. I chased after that feeling for 20 more years, and never quite found it.
I experimented with a lot of drugs as I got older. Throughout it all the was alcohol too. I could always count on alcohol to help me forget.
There were good times, times I would never give up. Then there were other times that it would be ok to not remember.
ahh, the glamour of a couple of cocktails. Soon I was not getting far enough away from reality, so I decided that smoking and snorting drugs(along with the occasional "booty bump") wasn't enough, I need to get those drugs into me faster. I started shooting them.
Now I was really cool.
I found a group that I fit into so well that I was the only member. Well me and my drugs. If you were going to be joining me, you had better have drugs too and/or be incredibly well-endowed. My life had deteriorated to sitting in my bedroom, looking for sex on line, shooting dope and watching porn, good times.
What happened.
enough said.
What it is like now.
As of today, 2/5/05, I have been sober for 6 years. I am grateful everyday that I have had the opprotunity to live life on it's own terms. I have a great relationship with my folks, God love them for forgiving me all the crap I brought into their lives. I have great friends to whom I am accountable. I help people get sober, and stay sober, the greatest gift of all. Hell I answer my phone all the time now.
Today I want to send out some thanks to all the people who have helped me along the path of my recovery. I don't know many of the names, everyone I ever heard speak at a meeting, or sit quietly and listen. If you have ever been in the rooms, you have added to my sobriety. Here are a few of the names I know, forgive me if I left your name, I am still a little self absorbed!
David D, Fabian, Al, Dan, Matt, Scott, Scott, Andrew, Ashley, Barb, Becky, Bill, Bob, Brian, Bryan, Chris, Colin, Cormac, Craig, David B, David S, Frank, Jeff, Joe, John R, John H, Jon J, Kevin, Krag, Leo, Manny, Molly, Nicole, Nick, Patrick, Richard, Harris, Mike, Stephanie, Steve, Tim, Wayne, and everyone else.
Thanks.
My Creator, I am now willing that you should have all of me, good and bad. I pray that you now remove from me every single defect of character which stands in the way of my usefulness to you and my fellows. Grant me strength, as I go out from here, to do your bidding. Amen.
Have a great day.
It works.
Posted by JimG at February 5, 2005 11:34 PM
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